“The Nothing is spreading,” groaned the first. “It’s growing and growing, there’s more of it every day, if it’s possible to speak of more nothing. All the others fled from Howling Forest in time, but we didn’t want to leave our home. The Nothing caught us in our sleep and this is what it did to us.”
“Is it very painful?” Atreyu asked.
“No,” said the second bark troll, the one with the hole in his chest. “You don’t feel a thing. There’s just something missing. And once it gets hold of you, something more is missing every day. Soon there won’t be anything left of us.”
Michael Ende, The Neverending Story
What do you do when what you hold dearest is being destroyed? When someone attempts to kill the Goddess? Human-made materials now outweigh the entire biomass on Earth. The amount of plastic alone is greater in mass than all land animals and marine creatures combined, according to a paper published in Nature. We are not just killing nature, but replacing life with non-life, which is a lot worse. After all. death is just a stage of a movement towards something, but a concrete block is going nowhere.
This is not an easy time to start following a nature based spirituality. Nature is fucked. Caring about it, and being in an intimate relationship with it, hurts.
Going out, observing nature, you are constantly reminded of the damage we cause to it. Along the roads in the woods there are barren fields where all the trees have been cut down, wreaking havoc on biodiversity, replacing forest with tree plantations. When looking at pictures of cute animals on the internet, every other one is threatened. In neo-druidic tradition, the hawk, the stag, the salmon, and the bear are often seen as guardians of the directions. Of the four druidic totem animals, only one is living in healthy numbers (and that’s because we have killed most of the predators) one is near extinct, one is in steep decline, and one is being ravaged by the fish farming industry.
Enlightenment-entitlement
When, in our rituals, we call to spirits of animals being threatened by extinction or turned into industrial products, how does that affect our spirituality?
Nature spirituality, if we are to take it seriously, in these days necessarily will be a spirituality of grief. Not necessarily all the time. But if we mean anything by nature being sacred, we cannot be indifferent to nature not only being killed, but turned into non-life, being denied its place in the circle of life and death, decay and rebirth.
Spiritual people can be narcissist. Lost in themselves and their own enlightenment-entitlement. Cheerfully harming nature in our attempts to feel closer to it, or worse, ignoring it in our quest for inner harmony and telling ourselves that the physical world isn’t really important.
I find Druidry to be less so, because it teaches a balanced view of the physical and spiritual aspects of existence, and invites us to regard ourselves as parts of a greater whole. But if we view nature as something that is there to provide us with healing and feeling of well-being well-being, we could easily be a part of the problem as well.
Nature can and does provide us with those things. But for too long, we have regarded nature as something from which we can extract whatever we need, without having to bother with giving something back.
Conservative by default
These days, I find it impossible to follow a nature-based spirituality without being political. I am using that word very broadly here, not in the sense of having to support this or that party or organization, but in the sense of being engaged with the world around you on some level.
In recognizing that we are parts of a greater whole, you also recognize that our own personal well-being or salvation does not happen in isolation from the whole. The world around you matters. And if it does, there is a need to be informed about it and to consider the impact of your own actions on it. Perhaps to attempt to balance things a little, or at least to do as little harm as possible.
And as we know, staying silent, or considering yourself above a particular issue is also an action. In Pagan Anarchism, Christopher Scott Thompson writes that
Political neutrality is conservative by default. When the entire world is under threat from industrial capitalism, what does it mean for a Pagan to be apolitial? It can only mean that you will allow mountains to be blown apart for coal, forests to be clear-cut, rivers to be poisoned, and the Earth to be overheated until it becomes unliveable(…)
Christopher Scott Thompson, Pagan Anarchism
Nature isn’t there for you
What does all of this imply? First of all, it implies that meaningful spiritual practice means engaging with the world, not turning away from it. Secondly, it means engaging with all of it — all that is good and inspiring and beautiful, but also that which is unpleasant to think about, the ecocide, mass extinction, the ongoing destruction of the ecosystems.
It means acknowledging that these things exist, not as fringe phenomena but as something that is changing profoundly the world we live in, and somehow finding a way to cope with that. Is means singing dirges and battle-songs. And it means understanding that nature isn’t there for you. But you are part of it, or can learn to be again. This is what I am trying to do, slowly and stumblingly.
And if you don’t, no matter. The cockroaches will get you in the end anyway, for that is the way of things and the way it should be.